You make me...

Sometimes, I wonder if I’m going crazy.

These instances seem to be occurring more often not as of late.  The burning desire to find a corner and cry plagues me, and I can’t decide whether it means I still retain my sanity… or if I’m on a brink of losing it.  

Next semester looms ever near.  Can I make it?  Am I taking the right courses, the right number of credit hours?  What am I even doing with my life?  Will I ever succeed… or is my life going to be one failure after another?  I take two steps back before I can manage one step forward.  I feel like it will never end.  

And every time I find encouragement, motivation to continue on my chosen path, I find resistance and doubt.  In the eyes of others, I’m idiot wandering around in life, lost.  They don’t think I can make it.  I don’t think I can make it.  I don’t mean suicide - I have too many people who love me, depend on me.  But I don’t know how my choices will pan out.  

What am I doing.

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#001: http://youmakemeladidadi.tumblr.com/post/33209769763/naruto-drabble-sakura-centric-001

#002: http://youmakemeladidadi.tumblr.com/post/33210056135/naruto-drabble-sakura-centric-002

#003: http://youmakemeladidadi.tumblr.com/post/33210492075/naruto-drabble-sakura-centric-003

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Her sensei was a liar.          

His heavy hand found the top of her head, resting there a moment.  Not for comfort or encouragement – she was being patronized. 

In that moment, she truly hated.  She hated Kakashi for playing favorites, seeing her training as a game.  Naruto and Sasuke – especially “dead-last” Naruto – for leaving her behind.  The rest of the rookie-nine too, because even Ino-Pig and shy, stuttering Hinata surpassed her. 

Most of all, she hated herself.  What she did, who she was – what she still is. 

When Kakashi walked away, she made a decision. 

Sakura wouldn’t be left behind again.  

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#002: http://youmakemeladidadi.tumblr.com/post/33210056135/naruto-drabble-sakura-centric-002

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“Ne, Kaka-sensei…”  Sakura took a fortifying breath before forcing out, “Entering us in the exams – did you really believe we could do it?  Or were you trying to prove a point?”  After what happened in the exams so far, she couldn’t push aside the question any longer. 

He blinked.  She bit her tongue to keep from adding, Was the point for Naruto… or for me?

Kakashi gave her his trade mark eye-crinkle – the one that until now she thought to be unreadable – and she knew that the words that followed it would be lies. 

“I’ve always believed in my students.”  

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Naruto drabble #002.  #001 found here: http://youmakemeladidadi.tumblr.com/post/33209769763/naruto-drabble-sakura-centric-001 

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All of Team 7 gathered at Ichiraku.  Naruto was on his third bowl – Sasuke close behind despite his remarks on his rival’s general lack of etiquette – when Kakashi managed to finish by sneaking careful bites.  Sakura nearly missed the quick goodbye that followed.  Remembering the question niggling at the back of her mind, Sakura jumped up after Kakashi, giving Naruto permission to eat the last half of her own food in passing. 

Though her sensei didn’t wander far, Sakura’s haste and rush of adrenaline left her breathless.  “Kaka-sensei,” she called.

He paused, turning to face her.  “Yo, Sakura-chan.  Forget something?”

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I decided to try my hand at writing perfect drabbles (100 words each), and I’m on a Naruto kick, so here we go.  It’s been a long time since I watched/read the first arc, so please if there’s anything I need to fix.  I hope you enjoy!  All comments and suggestions welcome.

Once Team 7 recovered from the first round of one-on-one battles in the Chuunin exams, Naruto begged his team to meet up for ramen to celebrate – mostly for his own success, but also for “Sasuke-teme”.  (Not that Naruto would admit his pride in his rival.  But his pride in his team – in Sakura too, even if she didn’t succeed – was always apparent.  Sakura asked herself if she deserved such faith.)

Somehow the genin convinced their sensei to join as well.  Sakura wondered if the other rookie-team-leaders were partially responsible.  But Kakashi-sensei was here, with them, and that’s what mattered… right?